people never want things to be someone else's idea. Especially when it has to do with their own life choices. "People", as in, me. I'm stubborn. I'll get angry about nothing just to be angry. It's hard to lose.
What's worse than losing to someone else though, is losing to yourself. It won't happen. Never. Had a large-ish argument with Jon about culinary school. Oh, emotional Jade, just going to SIGN UP FOR CULINARY SCHOOL RIGHT NOW WHEN I GO HOME. I NEED TO TAKE ACTION. I NEED TO DO THINGS. I've been feeding my loneliness/restlessness with reckless card-swiping (or typing, since these are all online buys) at Payless, American Eagle, Nordstrom and Amazon, respectively. Payless, really? My empty heart must be itching for some lovin. Or at least some human contact. So yes, I attempted to sign away half of all my savings to register for a culinary school I have never seen, except online. I'm sure the place exists. It's legit. I think.
My dog always hides under the bed when I'm on the phone and am I a horrible, overly emotional, angry person? He's trying to escape all the bad vibes from under there. It's Pavlovian. I can't believe this is one of his habits. Even when I'm having a good phone call, he'll hide. I'm just passionate, okay?
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